Fathers Day………

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So it's fathers day and I'm missing my little boy. Every year it's tuff to send him back with his Mom. Don't get me wrong she deserves to be with him much more than see gets to, but I'm selfish and want him all the time. Soon after he goes home with Rachel it starts. It's the little things that get to me. He leaves and you have to throw away his old juice boxes, wash the bowl he ate his macaroni and cheese in, and pick up his toys he left out. A week later you're just starting to get back on track and now it's time to wash clothes that he left. We are getting into the final stage now.... Time to change sheets and make his bed. It's a little sad but at the same time, now I'm ready for him to be home...... I'll be waiting for him..... I love you Brandt!

More Changes…………

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Well after making changes to the web site I decieded to make some to the blog as well. I know, I know..... The content hasn't really changed but it's a different look. I think the blog has a close to final look, but the web site is only in a transitional stage until I can find something that works well and looks good too. After that will come more content. Maybe if work would let up a bit the content would come a little easier but for now it's pretty tuff to come by...... Anyhoo.....

Who’s idea was it to give feelings to man anyway…….

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So you'd think that last week when I watched all those old home videos, I'd have learned my lesson. Oh, No! I'm not that sharp evidently. I'm in the middle of cleaning out my closet right about now. Last week I found some old home video's (all pre-divorce). I should have known better but I watched them anyway. They made me feel really good.... followed closely by really bad. Well I got over that after a few drinks and about 70 hours at work last week. Well now I've found lots of Brandt's stuff ,old letters from many people that are very important to me and lots pictures. I was suckered in by it again. I'm feeling like crap again but I guess on the bright side, my closet is clean now......

Ho Hummmmm………

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Well I didn't get laid off the other day. I slipped by once again. A couple of my friends weren't so lucky. I actually think my name was on that list too, but was pulled off at the last minute. Since they start looking for layoffs by how much you are paid, I was in the top 5 or 6. I was told that they decided to keep me at the last second cuz they rethought what it would be like to run the company with no computer support. Not a pretty site and I'd be making twice what I am now if I contracted to them. I think I'm a little better off after today. Today they moved me to corporate. So now Corp is paying half my salary and Golden is paying the other half. I'm sure they are going to give me the design division so they will be paying some of me as well. So now I'm officially the IS Director for Golden. Senior Network Engineer for the corp. datacenter, and as soon as it's announce the IS director for Design Division. Talk about being spread thin. Well then I guess I could use to be a bit thinner......

State of my mental stability address………

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So you think your doing pretty good at your job. You've got things under control and everything is looking pretty good for the foreseeable future. They then add the Dallas location to your responsibilities, then Boston, followed by Boulder, Moorpark, and San Jose and Garland. At this point you are pretty much at the top of your game. You control the entire Value Added Division plus parts of the Fab Division. You have thing working like clockwork. Not only that, but with ten times the functionality of the rest of the company with only about 25% of the budget. Things still look good. Or so you think. The company starts loosing money and reorganizing things. They transferred control of San Jose to another division because they are geographically desirable. Hard loss there but I understand. The have proceeded to close Boston, then Dallas, Moorpark, Garland, and finally Boulder. Of that, most coming in the last two weeks. So now you’re left with exactly what you started with. Just your own little world at your home location. Are you next?

Ho Hum………

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I'm pretty sure my head is going to explode sometimes this morning. I'm doing a little DNS work today. I inherited DNS from a guy who didn't know his ass from DNS evidently. I've been known to mess some things up in the past but this is way goofed up. It's a wonder this company can get anything done on the web with this setup. Well not for long. I'm ass deep in a DNS review and audit, so it'll be straightened out shortly. I'm moving to a new office later today. That'll be fun. Pretty much garunteed to throw my back out. We are just about trippleing the number of servers in my server room so I need to move out of there. It'll be nice to have all that computing power but I kind of like my office. Anyhoo.....

Technology is great……..

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So how lazy do you have to be to order pizza online? Well I guess just ordering pizza online doesn't necessarily make you lazy, but when you order online and they don't have Dr. Pepper, and you know they do at your local pizza place, but it's way to much work to pick up the phone and order the old fashion way, then you are officially lazy. Or maybe that just says something about me......

Shoes from HELL………..

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What exactly is the deal with my shoes? Heck I don't even have new shoes yet, but they are fast becoming the shoes from hell. I walked all over the mall today, looked at every shoe that was my size or not. Nothing! Nada! Zip! I don't really know exactly what I am looking for but I'm sure I'll know it when I see it. That's kind of how I do pretty much every thing in my life. I did find a pair I really liked the way they looked but when I put them on, they just felt funny. I'm not into things that feel funny ya know. Anyhoo.... back to the search.

Sooooo….. It’s been a while……

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Yeah, I know. it's been a while since I've posted. But that is due to the never ending load of crap on me at work lately. They have been piling it up on my pretty heavy here this last couple of weeks. `Things job security wise are looking up a bit because they are giving me some pretty important projects that make it harder for them to ax me. Of course they have me building a server every other day for the next three weeks, so I guess I'm save till at least then. Anyhow, back to my little world I guess......

So what’s wrong with my life………?

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This is the question of the week..... What's wrong with my life? I don't really know that anything is wrong but I feel that something is a miss.... I've got this work thing going on. I've got this mystery stress coming from somewhere..... Although I'm pretty well prepared for loosing my job, I still have this feeling of impending financial doom..... My truck needs it first round of maintenance, so I course in my head it's falling apart. In the past this would be when I'd go buy a new one but after doing that a few time now I think I know better..... Brandt is going back to Rachel’s soon. I know she's the best mom on the planet but I still worry about him.... I gained back most of the weight I lost over the winter, due to stress I'm sure but still I don't like seeing it back..... This damn exchange failover cluster isn't working for me...... and I really need to clean house. I guess the only thing keeping me sane at this point is my friends and my little boy child (who isn't so little any more). Anyhoo, if anyone knows what's up with me just drop me an email... I'll be sure to give you credit for fixing me.....