I heard a NASTY rumor today……

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I don't know if this means anything but I heard a nasty rumor today from my boss. I heard that we were getting our pay cut that we took over a year ago back. We have had a freeze all raises since July of 2001. I don't know that this means anything but if the company was still struggling I don't think they would give back the pay cuts. Anyhoo.... It was a pretty good day all in all... Looks like my bestest ex-wife in the whole world is getting a new car. Well it's not new but pretty close. I sure hope she gets it and it's as good as we think it is. Well I need to get. Brandt says he needs some Frag time on Unreal Tournament 2003. It's addictive!

Weekend Report……

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So this weekend I went and saw Rachel. I took off part of the day on Friday so I could leave as soon as Brandt got outta school. It was a really long drive. It's a long enough drive anyway but when it takes you an hour and a have to get outta town that makes it... well an hour and a half longer. I should have known. There is a back way but it's about 30-35 miles farther. I guess in this case it would have probably been quicker. In any case I made it up there. There wasn't a lot I could do but lend moral support and be a friendly face to keep her company. We had some time to talk which I've really missed over the last year or so. Anyway I gave her a big ole hug and told her we are there for her. I spent some quality time with my other "son" Jarrett. That was nice. He was a very good little boy. I'm looking forward to hangin out with him again. Brandt, I think really needed this trip up there. He's been pretty worried so this made him feel better to see that everybody was ok. Anyway, we had to come home Saturday because I had to work on Sunday. It went pretty smoothly so that kind of worries me. But so far this morning everything looks good. Well anyway.... I need to get.

I’ve sold my sole to the devil, the devil I tell ya………

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I've done a very bad thing. But it is for the better of man kind. It truly is. Ya see I'm in this fantasy Nascar League. We started out the year and the first guy I picked was 4 time Nascar Winston Cup Champion, Mr, Jeff Gordon. We were set for a great year, or so we thought. The first half of the year I managed to stay in the top 2 in my league even with Jeff having a not so great year. I was happy with my standings but I couldn't say the same for Jeff's results. Well things progressively got worse and pretty soon Jeff was costing my big $$$'s under the salary cap and not producing as we are used to. As I was needing some points under the cap I figured I'd give something a try. Now I know this is scary but bare with me. I dropped Jeff. By doing that I was able to pick up Mark Martin and Matt Kenseth. The theory in this which proved to be 100% true is that I am the causing Jeff's bad season. Me and my Fantasy League alone must be causing this. The first week after dropping Jeff and he Win's by knocking Rusty out of the way which is exactly how we like winning. Now at this point I'm thinking that I may have opened the flood gates and I need to fork over the $$$ for Jeff and start catching up as I was now a mere 7th in points of the fantasy league. Unfortunately for me, but fortunate for Jeff I didn't get my trade in time. Since jeff wasn't on my roster for a second straight week it had no choice but to win. Since I've added him back, his performance has been pretty much dismal. This week I made a choice to take one for the team. I picked up the red bat phone sittin here on my desk and talked it over with Jeff. After bad mouthin Brooke for a few minutes we decided that I would fall on the grenade. This week I've removed Jeff from my roster. It's pretty much death to my chance to win my league but it's pretty much a guaranteed win for Jeff, or at least a top ten. Please don't think ill of me for doing this dastardly deed. I'm looking at the big picture. Forgive me.....

I really wish I had one of those red and blue nap maps you had in kindergarten right now…..

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So last night I didn't get ANY sleep at all. I was tired enough that I should have slept like a rock, but I didn't. Ya know until a year ago I pretty much NEVER had nightmares. In the last year I've had a few that have really scared the shit out of me. Mostly centered around the death of loved ones. The dreams haven't really been so much about the death but about the fact that there was nothing I could do to stop it, change it, or bring them back. Last night it was Rachel's turn. I don't really know what happened but all I know is she was missing and presumed dead. By the time I got to her house, little white house on Elm Street, there was nothing for me to do but feed and water her cat and dog. Well that and wait. I awoke in a full panic. My emotions really got the best of me on this one. I think I've found a common theme in all these dreams. See here’s the deal as far as Rachel and Jarrett are concerned, wife or ex-wife I'm suppose to be there for them. Not necessarily to take out the trash or mow the grass but when things get tuff I'm the guy they can count on to be there. In these dreams for one reason or another I wasn't able to be there. I know in life you can't always be there 100% but damn it in my dreams I should be able to. I'm thinking one of those dream machines will take care of this problem. Annnyyyy Waaayyyy.... So needless to say I didn't sleep much last night. So I'm pretty much running on empty today. Well it's back to the ole grind.....

P.S. To any loved ones out there right now, don't have any emergencies or anything you may need someone to lean on until I get a nap.

Yaaaawwwnnnnn……

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So I'm supposed to be working, but ya know, when the cats away the mice will play. So that's what I'm doing. I'm need to go down to our Value Added facility that is closing on the 27th and do some inventory and move some things out. But then again... they are closing on the 27th so why the rush. After yesterday I worked about three days worth so I think today should be a comp day. Anyhoo.... I'm just doing some surfin trying to find some cool sites. No luck today. I've been researching stocks a bit this morning. After yesterday I think I'll back off of the stocks for a while. Yesterday one of my stocks went from .38 cents to .14 cents in 3 mintues. That's 63% of it's total worth. You think when your are talking stocks under a dollar that it's not alot of money but if you have thousands of shares it adds up quick. Well anyway I need to get.... I hear todays dilbert is pretty good, so I'll go check that out.

P.S. Good luck Rachel on day 3 of your new job....

ACkkkkk…….

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This morning I had to delete three post. For some reason they wouldn't publish. I think it was the third one that was causing the problems. They weren't very good post anyway so I just deleted them. Anyway that's not really what I wanted to talk about anyway. This weekend I had to be at work all day Saturday, so I figured I would hack my Tivo. My Tivo has a 35 Hour (40GB) hard drive in it. Now you'd think 35 hours is more than anybody can use, but you'd be wrong. I need way more than the 35 hours. I wanted to buy the bigest one possible when I bough it but they were way to expen$ive. I think it was like $600 for a 70 hour Tivo at the time. So I took my Tivo to work and busted it open. I left my 40GB hard drive in there and added a 120GB drive to it. That took my piddly little 35 hour system to 146 hours. That's more like it. Now I can fucntion in my little Tivo world the way god meant me to. Now as far as cost.... well as far as I can tell I made out great. The Tivo was $130 and the hard drive was another $160, so that brings me to $290. That's alot of money but I looked online and the bigest Direct Tivo (directtv version) I found was a 60 hour system for $450. Image what they would charge for a 146 hour system. I think I made out pretty good... I also made a backup of my Tivo software. So if the hard drive ever dies I can replace it myself and not have to send it into the shop. So I feel I did OK for myself and had some fun with it at the same time.....